Tuesday, March 8, 2016

You're a good good father...

I am sitting in paradise as I reflect on God. I am approaching 3 years since I felt my Father surround me with His love and tenderness. I felt His love calm me and make me feel at complete peace. I was fighting for my life and HE knew what I needed. He is a good, good father. And we are so greatly loved by him. Olivia Joy was the completion of my family. She was the last to hear my heart from the inside, and a joyous occasion turned into something that almost changed our path and took me from the ones I love the most. Instead of falling away, I leaned on our heavenly father. I drew closer to God, and you know what? He never left my side. I prayed over and over again. "Lord be with me". I know He has a purpose that I cannot describe for my life. I can speak on that moment with more faith than I have ever experienced in my life. He held me in the darkness. He brought me through to the other side. I am loved by Him. He is so perfect in all of his ways.

I am sitting and typing this out while Chris Tomlin and Pat Barrett serenade my eardrums. "Love so undeniable that I can hardly speak. Peace so unexplainable that I can hardly think..." What do YOU think God is like?

He gets us through the hardships. I think sometime people are afraid to speak to Him. But you know what? He knows it all. It was laid out for us before we were formed in the depths of our mother's womb. We have been struggling as we navigate the path with our son and his anxiety/depression. What gets me through it is God. I need to reflect on how good he is. How amazing he is and how loved I am. How incredible is it that we have this opportunity? This trip away has been a moment of reflection and renewal. Resting and staring in awe and wonder at everything around me that God has made. I will go home with an open mind and a softened heart for my son. I am painting in my journaling bible as I worship Him. As I ponder WHO He is.

Chris and Pat spoke about their video for "Good Good Father" - We all have a picture of who we think God is. When we get down to the foundation of what we believe, the truth is that God is exactly who He says He is - a good, good father. I watched the behind the scenes of the song and had tears in my eyes. It is powerful. Watch it HERE.

You can purchase this song, which is one of my absolute favorites by going to iTunes or clicking HERE.  How would you like to meet Chris Tomlin? You could win hotel and airfare to the nearest location to worship with Chris Tomlin! Enter HERE!!

My prayer for you as you read this, that you never lose sight on the love our father has for you. We search for answers that were already written. Do not fear. Do not lose hope. Do not live life in despair. God is there. He is a good, good father.

Friday, March 4, 2016

Hello Fresh...hellooooo easy!

Alright, let's get real for a moment. My life is insane. Like, lack of sleep, hard to find time for yourself, not enough hours in the DAY sort of insane. Am I complaining? Heck no! These kidlets are small for such a short amount of time that I am soaking up every single dynomyte second! Bring it!

The area of my life that is lacking most...meal time. I am NOT even kidding you when I say that I struggle the most anymore with taking the time to plan out my meals for the week, grocery shop and then enough energy to physically prepare the food. Then this comes along...

A delightful package with 3 meals that contain enough ingredients to feed my entire family. HelloFresh...you had my from the moment I opened my front door. I have ALWAYS wanted to try one of these home delivered meal, thingie McBobs. But have been so leery. I do not want to buy a box that contains wilted lettuce and slimy meat. The inner farm girl came out of me as I carefully unpacked my box. Were the veggies wilted? Is the meat warm. Do they REALLY contain everything I need?

Boy Howdy was I in for a treat!

I could hardly contain my excitement as I opened our first meal. I squealed with delight unpacking the ingredients and scoping out the task at hand. Could I do it? Will we like it? UM, is this thing REALLY edible? And the million dollar question, will it look like the picture??

You will notice in the background of my pictures, mess. Everywhere. We are in between sports, in the middle of remodeling, preparing for a tropical vacation, planning birthday parties and LARGE school events as well as working fulltime from home. The clutter at this moment is the least of my worries! Food however...this makes the want/need list!

Future blogger and daughter extraordinaire grabs my camera and starts taking pictures while I was cooking! It was kind of fun to see me through HER eyes. Catch the angles and elements she saw were important to her!

The instructions are fool proof. Perfect for my lack of brain cells these days. HelloFresh even included an apron, which was great cause we all know I can get messy when I cook!

The only ingredients for this recipe not included were olive oil, salt and pepper. Easy enough I always have them on hand.

The ingredients were fresh. As if I would have picked them out myself. Nothing was wilted, brown or questionable. Spices were pre-measured so all I had to do was dump and pour. The step by step pictures were right up my alley. HelloFresh made it so easy on me I could carry on a conversation with my big despite it being the first time I have ever made this recipe.

My house smelled divine.

We couldn't wait to dive in!

The amount of food we received for the value was impressive. HelloFresh has thought of it all from packaging, to flavor and to freshness. I am highly impressed and was so excited to look at the options.
I LOVE that when you sign up it says "We love picky eaters" They make the recipes easy to follow, FRESH FRESH ingredients and I can use the time spent working up a menu, finishing Mt. Everest {aka laundry pile}. You can choose from Classic, Veggie or Family boxes. The ingredients are farm fresh, delivered to your doorstep. Win win if you ask me!!

Wanna hear something SUPER DUPER RAD?!! By reading my blog...HelloFresh has a $35 off code for you!! Homey say whaaaaaaat!! YES! Simply use the code Britch35 AWESOME POSSUM!!  Did I tell you that DELIVERY is FREE?!! As they say "We deliver everything to your door, so you can skip the trip!" Oh how this makes my busy mama heart soar! And while you are drooling over the choices, you can sip some java on me! Enter below for a $10 Starbizzle gift card!

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Why can't you just be...

Jesus replied "You do not understand now what I am doing but someday you will." John 13:7

I am looking, searching, seeking out that understanding. I need to be patient. My faith is grounded, yet my want and need to know more is crippling. It makes my head spin. It creates turmoil within. The evil one is taking jabs at me, filling my head with thoughts that are not my own. I seek to know Jesus and he steps in my way trying to get me to avoid running into HIS arms. The holy one. Evil will not prevail.

My baby. My boy. My son...he is battling anxiety and depression at a very young age. It is hard. I feel alone most days and don't feel like doing normal things. I want to hide my pain and yet I need to talk about it and cry about it. My frustration is overwhelming me. Dealing day to day is hard. We walk on eggshells. You don't know when it will hit. It is like being sideswiped by a semi-truck going 70 mph. Everything is "perfect". There is laughter, fun, singing and praising and then...BAM. It hits. And it is ugly. Typically there are tears. You watch your child display Jekyll and Hyde before your very eyes. And so far, nothing turns it off. It has ruined birthdays, dinner nights out and family time. It is time consuming, exhausting, mentally and physically draining. You feel stuck and don't know what to do. He has to learn to readapt. It is something his mind and body struggles with...and it is something that breaks me apart inside.

I am not a perfect mom. A perfect wife, friend or person in fact. I sin. Daily. But I am trying. I sin when I look at him and think, "Why can't you just be normal?" How unfair is that? He IS normal. He is fighting a battle that I need to fight beside him. Sometimes it feels like I am his battle. I am the cause. When he comes out of an episode and you see the sweet child you know and love so much, who looks you in the eyes and says "I am so sorry mommy." your heart breaks again. Why am I not fighting for him?

When you see him walking to the car after school with his sister and he is SMILING...you whisper "Thank you Jesus!". He climbs inside and you happily say, "Hi bud! I missed you! How was your day?" and just as an egg hardens in boiling water, so does he. He becomes stiff, rigid and you hear a lot of "harrumphs." And instantly, your heart sinks. You see it not only affects him. It affects you. It affects his sisters, who were just giggles moment before. The car becomes silent and you just want to fold up into a fetal position...and cry. It sucks.

"Is he angry?", is a question I get a lot. Typically, no. For my son, it comes out in extreme sensitivity. HIGH emotions and when he speaks it is mumbles and whines. He goes from happy, life giving and sweet to mopy and sad. This cycle hits off and on throughout a day. There are days where it doesn't hit at all, and you see glimpses of your happy child. Your heart yearns for more. The worst thing you can say to a mom who is struggling is, "Ooooh...it is because he is the ONLY boy. I just know it. Poor kid." <---- Homey say what?! Don't, I repeat. DO NOT say that to anyone!

Today it hit us again. It started at 5 in the morning and came on as though he was sick. Yesterday we were elated to find out Noah was moving UP in his reading class. We "thought" we were preparing him with excitement in joy. Little did we know inside was turmoil. It manifests into not feeling good. Sometimes it comes as headaches. His thoughts become OCD and he can't stop thinking about every scenario..."Where will I sit?" "Which kid will have to leave because I am moving in there?" "Which kid will take my place in my class?" "What if they don't have a seat for me?" The thoughts never stop. Once I figured out the problem, I started talking him through it. We then decided for him to go back to school for the rest of the day. He agreed.

On the way walking into the school, "What if they already had snack?" "What if they already sang Happy Birthday to Tomie?" "Will they be in the classroom?" "What if I can't find them." <----- this constant questions when a routine is off are draining me. Constantly trying to keep up the pep. Always cheerily, helping steer him through it.

For us we decided on play therapy. We are open minded if down the road he needs to try other things. BUT our therapist/psychologist is confident she will be able to help him. He is excited to go. He asks if it is time for HIS play date. I am praying that God will shine a light down our dark tunnel. That the fog will dissipate and I can start to see the end. We also use marbles for incentives. When he has a good day. You see him say something nice, be helpful etc. BUT he is not allowed to ASK for marbles! They can be turned in for time on in the iPod etc. 1 marble is 1 minute. We also have him pray about it and read devotions. IN FACT his new favorite is Jesus Today by Sarah Young! It is perfectly written in a way that he can understand. He feels accomplished when he gets to tell us what he learned.

I am thrilled to be giving a copy of Jesus Today away to 1 lucky reader. 357 pages of pure gobble it up goodness. Each devotion is based off of scripture and was written in a way that it is like Jesus is speaking directly to them! {you may recognize the author's name as being the worldly famous author of Jesus Calling! My oldest reads Jesus Calling: 365 Devotions for Kids every morning!}

It is simple! You must be at least 18 years or older and a U.S. or Canadian resident only.

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Sunday, January 24, 2016


Have you ever felt stuck? Dragged down by life and feeling like your life has no purpose? You are not alone. SO many have felt this way at one point or another. You will WANT to watch this movie! I had the privilege of reading the book before the movie hit the theatre. It is is based on the true story of Brian Nichols who became the subject of a citywide manhunt after he broke out of custody awaiting his trial and killed 4 people. He finds his way to the unsuspecting Ashley Smith's apartment when she runs out to her car to grab something while unpacking her belongings into her new apartment. Ashley is an addict. An addict who is leading herself down a path she doesn't want to walk down...but cannot seem to find her way out. Even though she is struggling to get her daughter back. She turns a disadvantage into something that will bring tears to your eyes. Watch the trailer for yourself.

The book was incredible and the movie was even better. I cannot wait for you to see it! It releases on January 29th, but you can win a copy here! It is super easy! All you have to do is enter below! Winner must be a U.S. or Canada resident and at least 18 years or older.

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Friday, January 15, 2016

Passion Salvations Tide is Rising - Review and GIVEAWAY!

I have been blessed by many things. But the #1 place I am most grateful...is that Christ the Lord is my ROCK. I can do all things with HIM by my side.  I feel refreshed and renewed when I listen to worship music. Let's face it, I am a mom of 4. Those that can take an hour or more away out of their day to have quiet time...alone {what IS that?!} so I find ways to pull Christ in any way that I can. I sang worship songs through my mind as I hiked up 2600 ft. A summit I was determined to conquer. With Christ by my side.

You see GOD is all around us. He is never apart from you. DO NOT feel guilty because you needed sleep and couldn't sit and read your bible. He KNOWS your heart. He knows your thoughts...fill your brain with worship music and move about your day.

Being a blogger comes with some perks. One is that I get asked to try, read, watch or even listen to products before they are available to the public. I choose what I want and what is right for me. I seriously JUMPED at the chance to listen to the NEW CD called Passion Salvations Tide is Rising, which features some of my MOST FAVORITE singers {David Crowder sings straight to my heart}. I was NOT disappointed when I downloaded it.

I feel refreshed and renewed in the spirit. This CD was named Passion for a reason. HE is MY passion and these songs make me fall in love with Him all over again. Isn't that an incredible feeling? Falling in love? Now I want YOU to fall in love with this CD and draw yourself closer to HIM! Words like "let faith change the atmosphere" GAH!! YES PLEASE!! Hope IS alive! CD releases to all on January 29th!

The Passion Movement and the messages of founder Louis Giglio have marked the lives of millions of people around the globe, calling people everywhere to live for the glory of God. Goosebumps right?!

How do you enter? You must be at least 18 years or older and a U.S. or Canadian resident!

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Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Make life a little sweeter than usual

Tis the season to be jolly. I dunno about you but I love me some holidays...like, sumpin' fierce! My love language is gifts. I LOVE to make, create and give. One of my most favorite brands to use when baking in the kitchen is NESTLÉ® TOLL HOUSE. I know whatever I make it is guaranteed to be delish as it is a brand I have used since I was a kid! In fact I was in charge of making the Chocolate Chip Cookies as my recipe was the best!

Have you TRIED their hot cocoa?? It is the best and creamiest. My secretly fabulous hot cocoa consists of lots of whip cream and finely chopped candy canes on top. The powdery dust of the candy canes gives it an unbelievable flavor! Hellooooo holidays! The first things my kids ask for on snowy, cold and blustery days "Mama, can you make your cocoa?" They have no idea but we are doing a Polar Express night with their very own cocoa bar. They can choose their cocoa toppings. Curl up under a cozy blanket and watch one of our favorite Christmas movies!

My friends and neighbors are receiving my famous Christmas bark. I love the combination of milk chocolate and white chocolate combined together with chopped candy canes on top. And it is ridiculously easy!

I personally buy my Semi-Sweet Chocolate chips at Costco! As I said, NESTLÉ® TOLL HOUSE is the brand we have used since before I was even a thought! I use large mason jars and fill them in pantry so they are pretty! We never not have them on hand. I was THRILLED to find mini morsels which I plan on using for cookie decorating, as well as pancakes! For this bark recipe pick pick a chocolate flavor! I used semi-sweet for this recipe sometimes like to use dark as well! You will also need a large bag of white chocolate morsels. 

Take a large pot, fill 1/4 way with water. Place a metal bowl or glass bowl over top. Be sure water is not touching the bowl on the inside. This will burn your chocolate! Bring water to boil on high and dump in your morsels.

Mix until creamy and smooth. I used a disposable cookie sheet which is lined with parchment paper. Spread your chocolate out evenly and then place in the refrigerator while you start the next process!

Repeat the same steps as above, this time with the white chocolate. When the milk chocolate is cooled pour the white chocolate over top. Spread and sprinkle with finely chopped peppermint sticks. Something you can do for added flavor is using peppermint extract or even spearmint flavor the chocolate before spreading in the pan. You will want to do this after the chocolate is fully smooth. Refrigerate 1-2 hours. When fully solid you can either use your hands or a knife to break the bark into chunks. We place in colorful tins and mason jars we will deliver to our friends. 

I hope you can 'bake' someone's day this holiday! Look for a fun giveaway on Instagram! Do me a favor...click HERE <----- tell me WHAT I should make next!! This will act as an extra entry on the giveaway that is found on Instagram! You can follow my friends at NESTLÉ® TOLL HOUSE here on Facebook as well as click HERE for a coupon! I can't wait to hear what you think I should make! 

Sunday, December 13, 2015

Apple Pie Bread - Recipe, review and Giveaway

I love the holiday season. It is my excuse to get into the kitchen and create new recipes. My mama raised me on the farm. We had MILES between us and town so most of what we ate we made from scratch in the kitchen. I was the "baker" of the family. My first cookbook instilled a love of baked goods and helped to feed my creativity. My least favorite part...cleaning the dishes! Reynolds Wrap has made my love even easier! With their NEW disposable bakeware as well as non-stick parchment lined my world just got a whole lot easier!

I may have gone a wee bit crazy at the store! This isn't even ALL of it! I purchased disposable bakeware for all my baking needs this holiday season. To say I am excited is an understatement...um. HELLOOOOO!! Who likes spraying oil all over the kitchen?! There was this one time I sprayed "the pan" and really I was spraying the floor as well. Picture one accident prone mama stepping into a slick spot on the kitchen floor! Oil 1 - Me 0

Mix all of the ingredients together in a large bowl.

2 1/2 cups apple pie filling, chopped
2 1/2 tsp cinnamon
3/4 tsp salt
3/4 tsp baking powder
1 1/2 tsp baking soda
3/4 tsp nutmeg
2 1/2 cups sugar
3 eggs
3/4 cup canola oil
3 3/4 cup flour

Heat oven to 350. Fill the Reynolds bread pans 2/3 way full. Makes enough for 8 mini loaves of bread! I do not remove the parchment paper from the bottom. Pour directly in! Bake for 35 minutes. Set aside to cool 5 minutes and deliver with love to those who mean the most to you!

Wanna know something cool?! YOU can score a $1 off coupon just by clicking HERE! Oh but there is more! Who wants to win $10 CASH?! Yep! You read that right! 1 reader will win $10 for you to be able to purchase your very own Reynolds Wrap disposable bakeware!

To enter you must be 18 years or older and a U.S. resident! Click HERE before entering below!  Don't forget to check out Reynolds Wrap on Facebook as well as Instagram for more fun ideas!

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